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In the end, Ronan chose a place that wasn't too expensive or too high-class, but one where it also wasn't out of place to dress in something a little nicer than jeans and a tank-top. Even two years out of Aglionby hadn't endeared Ronan to wearing a fucking tie so he didn't quite go that far, but did dress in a nicer pair of slacks and a white buttoned-up shirt that he kept loose up by the neck so he didn't feel he was being strangled.

And a blazer he'd dreamt a few weeks ago, the fabric undefinable but comfortable and sleek.

The dinner was paid for entirely in money he'd earned at Graymark, money he'd tried telling Luke he didn't really need but Luke insisted on giving him. It was more than enough to cover anything he and Adam might want, even when Ronan asked for another round of wine.

"Thought we could go for a walk or something after this," he said, dropping his hands to fidget with the napkin in his lap and trying not to stare at Adam's face in the low light for too long, the cast of shadows across his cheekbones and the purse of his lips. Jesus, when had he turned into such a fucking lovesick asshole? "Or we can just go back to Cabeswater. Or Hywel," he added because that felt important. It was Adam's decision, really. "Everyone else is out at that party, aren't they?"

Date: 2017-02-14 05:24 am (UTC)
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Adam can't help looking at that jacket, at all of Ronan really, but he's especially caught by the sleek fabric that holds to Ronan's form and looks as if it cost thousands of dollars. Even when Ronan conjures from dreamstuff, he always looks expensive and Adam can't stop watching it.

He doesn't comment when Ronan orders more wine, has to admit he sort of likes how it looks on the table between them. They spend so much time together, informal and comfortable, that going on a Date in any capacity feels special. Ronan's chosen well; the restaurant is definitely a step up from what they usually do but not so far up that either of them feel put on a gallows.

It's them and Adam lets Ronan cover the bill, just this once.

"I'd guess so. I know Blue's got friends going." Adam had bowed out this time and isn't sorry that he had.

Date: 2017-02-15 07:34 am (UTC)
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"None of the menagerie will mind," Adam says, smirking. He has no idea sometimes how Gansey puts up with it without going insane. Having been to the Gansey mansion, Adam knows that Gansey is used to a well-ordered existence that has no room for multiple cats, rats, and many other furred and feathered companions.

He wants to tell Ronan that they miss him and the empty bedroom is a palpable thing. They want him to find some peace. Adam needs them to be Them again.

But not today. Today's about them, not the collective. He thinks he gets to be selfish.

Date: 2017-02-16 04:58 am (UTC)
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He laughs too and reaches out, squeezing Ronan's hand. It's so much of what they do anyway, except that today is special. Not because of the date but because it's them, on a Date. Even if they do something mundane, there's still that little veneer over it that makes it extra good, just for them.

"Hell if I know, but...that sounds good, honestly," he says. It sounds normal and stable and comfortable, all things they've lacked.

Date: 2017-02-17 07:26 am (UTC)
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Adam shrugs. If it's what they want then why not do it? He tightens the hook of his fingers in reply, letting the connection hold between them. "But it's Tuesday," he says, as if that's the part that makes the difference. This time, it's just for them. There are no absurd chocolates playing havoc with their desires. Just them, just what they want.

Date: 2017-02-20 04:55 am (UTC)
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"It's a good Tuesday," Adam says. "And we'll probably have the place to ourselves most of the night." They've all paired off, one way or another for the night it seems, but he doesn't bring that up. It's another 'for later' when they're not having a night that's all theirs.

Date: 2017-02-21 03:51 am (UTC)
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Adam's expression softens then, goes almost sad for how much he's trying to make this about them he can't help but think of the other people who love Ronan. "It's always been your room," Adam says, as firmly as he can. "I'm not the only one who misses you being there."

Gansey does, of course, definitely Noah. He'd hurt Blue but he was still a part of their whole. He reaches out and takes Ronan's hand again.

"It's still your home too, you know."

Date: 2017-02-21 06:13 am (UTC)
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Adam sighs and withdraws his own hand. "They don't think they're welcome," he says. Or maybe they think Ronan just needs more time. Adam doesn't know and as much as he wants Ronan to come back home and for things to be as they were, there are so many reasons that make it beyond his ability to fix.

"It's not..." Adam chews his lip.

"I was always going to leave Henrietta," he admits. "But I never had anything to go back to." Not Gansey, who'd seemed to be ever-transient and not Blue, who'd seemed to hate him for a while. But Ronan?

Date: 2017-02-22 05:12 am (UTC)
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"Things are different. But it's not because of Darrow," Adam says. He turns his plate in a slow circle as he thinks about what he means, how he wants to say it. "I never had a reason to come back to Virginia." When he emphasizes the past tense, his eyes flick up and he looks Ronan in the eyes, making it clear that he's the reason, the one he'd return to.

Loving Ronan had taught him the duality of Henrietta. It made cruel people and sad, hopeless ones but it also made Ronan. It made a boy who could dream things and people without end. It had made Ronan and for that, Adam couldn't hate Henrietta.

"You're a reason to come back," he says, not buying Ronan's attempt at brushing it off. "It matters."

Date: 2017-02-22 11:44 pm (UTC)
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"Which face," Adam asks, unable to help himself, to fall back on the format of an old and crude joke. He shakes his head and reaches out for Ronan again. He's right. Tomorrow, Adam might bring it up again, the fact that he's still welcome in his own home and with his made family, but that can wait.

Tonight is theirs.

He lets go so he can finish his food but hooks his ankle around Ronan's under the table to make up for it.

Date: 2017-02-23 06:47 am (UTC)
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"Christ, Ronan, we're supposed to be having a good time," Adam says. Economics is a boring topic, even for its most determined student. "You don't what to know about my classes."

Mostly, he wants to think about Ronan's hands, strong and clever, as he talks, the way his eyes fix on him and don't look away. The things about Ronan he loves.

"Ask me about something you actually want to hear about."

Date: 2017-02-24 03:38 am (UTC)
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"I don't hate it," Adam says. "It's just boring."

The things that interest him are beneath his aspirations. He may love and understand cars but he waits for the day that repairing a car is a luxurious weekend hobby instead of a money-earning necessity. Someday, he'll come home on the weekend with hours to wile away doing whatever he wants.

Whatever he and Ronan want.

Date: 2017-02-25 05:50 am (UTC)
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"I like my professors. My advisor's really smart," Adam says. Sometimes the in-class parts and his own stubborn will to succeed are the only things that keep him from losing his mind sometimes. And Ronan, always Ronan.

He looks up at Ronan, staring intensely at Adam, wineglass in hand, and suddenly chokes back on laughter. "God stop holding your glass like that, you look like a supervillain."

Date: 2017-03-01 05:01 am (UTC)
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"Probably not heroic," Adam says. He leans on his hand and raises an eyebrow at Ronan, challenging him. Of course he isn't a supervillain, Adam thinks, because for all his power, Ronan isn't cruel with it.

"What are you going to do with someone so unheroic?"

Date: 2017-03-02 03:20 am (UTC)
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Adam's breath catches and he waits for a punchline that he knows isn't coming. The moment passes and Adam realizes that not only is Ronan serious, so is he.

"Eventually," he agrees, smile soft. It's nice knowing and wanting it. They don't have to act on it now but hanging it up in their future gives a stability to Adam's dreams.

"Doesn't sound too villainous though."

Date: 2017-03-03 06:30 am (UTC)
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"Sounds like a lot of work," Adam says, carrying on with the joke but not ignoring the half-proposal. "And we'd have nothing to do after."

He swings their ankles back and forth again and feels lighter than he has all week, buoyed by who they are. What they get to be.

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